Incompatible
Every couple of months, I get a wave of emotions where I feel incompatible with my husband. Nothing I like, he enjoys. I don’t think he finds me interesting, and frankly I don’t find him interesting in those moments either. It’s usually when he’s busy and overwhelmed with work or when I'm in the middle of my cycle.
I feel like he has less patience towards my very needy personality. It's like I’m asking for too much but in those moments, I just really want to be heard and comforted. I don’t know how to explain it or if this feeling is even normal. It’s not that I get bored of our routine but it’s the mundane in the days that drive me nuts. No initiatives, no dates planned -- it feels like a never ending cycle with a roommate, not my lover. What's worse is that he doesn’t take feedback well. He thinks I insult his character rather than me pleading for him to meet my needs with an open mind and open heart. It’s devastating but a couple days later, I’m reminded of how awesome he is.
I wonder if others experience this too. We’ve only been married a year and a half. I imagined things to be easier by now, but I'm learning it doesn't get easier, you just get to know your partner better. Mind you, we don’t have any kids, or dogs, or any major responsibilities that would bring more pressure and overwhelm. These clouded moments make me nervous but I'm sure we will make it because we both want to.